no corner cutting here

This project is not allowing me to cut corners.
I wanted to finish a new video this week, but instead while working on it made I realized that I was missing something and after a week of editing and re-doing and deleting and and and … I finally admitted defeat and only then I found out what this new episode was really going to about and I understood what was bothering me all the time.
And it´s not only the lack of expression of feelings  in the letters I was reading, but it´s all about denial and keeping up appearances long after everything has fallen apart.
Funny also how I always rationnaly knew this was the case and was bothering me then and now, but somehow to really know something you need to feel it and realize it in a profounder way.
So, a fresh start in two weeks … but first, a holiday. Well deserved, even if I say so myself. 

unrelated picture. 1981. USA trip. happier times. not perfect though. and some signs of what was going to come.